EVERYTHING SERVES

Everything Serves, because Life is in Service to itSelf.  Life is like a giant ball being pulled in towards the Center.  The Center, is Home and Service is the call to Home.  It is like a transmitter that goes out and all things, including you are in Service to that Return to Self.

Service does not look like anything, because Service is all things.  Most consider service to be doing something one would call "good" for another.  But if one is willing to look honestly at this, there has to be someone that is not doing "good" for the other to do "good" for it (this is something to look at closely).

As one begins to allow for the possibility that they do not know what anything is for, then they can be kinder to their self in what they feel they should be accomplishing and what is actually being accomplished.  You will come to find that everything you do, including making others happy or sad or angry or blissful is all in Service.

There is a story about a man on the subway with his children and they are acting completely unruly and being noisy and running around when they should be sitting.  The woman next to them is getting terribly annoyed and thinking "why won't this man do something about his awful children."  She burns with this for awhile before finally she just blurts out "Mister what is wrong with you, control your children!"  He lifts his head and looks at her with tears in his eyes and says "So very sorry ma'am, we just came from the hospital...where their Mother just died.  Children come here and behave." 

This simple story has changed so much in how things are seen from these eyes, that no matter what is thought, one doesn't know what anything is for or why things are happening.  But this story has Served on many occasions.  And maybe it will Serve you who is reading this now, not to so quickly judge a book by its cover and to have some willingness that no matter what you think about a situation, you maybe wrong, to have a bit of compassion for others that may not be able to handle things as well as you do, and compassion for yourself when you can't handle things as well as others.

Eventually we all return to the Self that is Calling us Home and it is always the call to Love, no matter what it looks like in the world.

"I" Will Survive...Not.

Most people believe that they will survive death, not all, but most.  This is because they have identified who they are with the body and ultimately with the thought "I" or the personality, which was only created during the time you have been in the world accumulating the knowledge of who and what you are, by your tastes and traits and upbringing.

This short little video says it all.  This is the "I" thought shouting out at the world that it will survive, hence the creation of a "heaven" where all the personalities that can't seem to get along in the world will some how miraculously get along in some other place after the body dies.  But this is a lie that only those that would like to think that they don't have to die, believe in.

There actually is a Heaven, but you don't get to go there, you are already in IT.  But that is a big leap.  

In this world, what is born in this world, does not leave this world and that includes the body and the personality or "I" thought.

So sing and dance and play and laugh until that ball comes falling from the sky which will discontinue the "you" in this world.  You can also begin to take the time to focus the attention on what wasn't born into this world, and doesn't die when the world ends, because the world is in IT, just like "you."

ALL THINGS THAT MOVE (Must Die)

All things that move must die.  This is a thought that appeared this morning during Meditation.  It is a continuation from a walk from yesterday, where Marma (the Chicken) pulled a mushroom out of the ground...took a few bites and then left it.  I went over picked up the broken piece and placed it in my mouth.  As mushrooms are mostly water (like the body) it began to melt and become a flavorful water that then was swallowed.  There was a moment of Awareness of "one Body."  One Body of water that "we" are all In.

So back to all things that move must die.  During Meditation the thought appeared that anything that moves must die.  Take a look for yourself, look at all the things that must die for your day to exist.  Plants and animals must die to give you energy to move about your day.  Just waking up and rubbing your eyes kills thousands of little tiny lifeforms that have been existing on your lashes.  When you go in the shower or bath you drown thousands of others.  Each step your foot makes, if you are not paying attention, crushes and kills grass, plants, flowers, bugs, and millions of things that they eye cannot see.  Cows and goats and anything else that produces a form of milk, spend their lives serving your need to move and expend energy.  Trees are cut down to keep you warm, build your furniture, your home, your pencils and millions of other things that movement requires the trees to die for.  The Earth is stripped of its fish, its soil, it's clean air and it's greenery, so that we can eat, and drive to places to eat what we have taken, which means roads must remove the grass and trees that keep the clean air. This can go on and on...you can take a look at what the energy and movement of your body requires from this life to make that happen.  

But back to "all things that move must die."  All movement is away from who you truly Are...which cannot die.  So if you move, you move in the direction of death.  This does not mean that if you do not move that the body won't die, for the body itself is in perpetual motion and must die or dissolve back into what it came from.  

However, one might be wise to look where they are rushing to get to.  As one slows down, there is more of an opportunity to see where one is going.  As one slows down, less things die, less quickly.  As one slows down, there is less need for energy, which means less food is needed, which means less plants and animals die.  And where was one in a hurry to get to, wouldn't it be their own death?  

The less time you are in a car, the longer your chances are to live, right?  Aren't car crashes one of the number one causes of death?  And if you are driving less, you are doing less damage to the Earth so not only do you live longer but the Earth does too and all the things that one kills with one's car as they barrel down the road to the end, get to hang around a bit longer too.  

This isn't being said to make guilt, it is about Awareness (and possibly some gratitude for all that gives its life for you to live yours).  Begin to Be Aware of where you are headed and take the time to see how much life gives to you so that you have the life you are in.

All things that move will die and will be replaced by something, something will be born in its place, but what is the hurry for the end of what is and the beginning of the new.  If you have ever lost someone you love, you know that it cannot be replaced (this goes for all living things), the exact same does not come.  Everything that gives it's life is unique and precious and will not come again in that same form.  So be Aware of the forms around you...all the forms, not just bodies but everything that you are in, eventually it will not be there, but it is there for you right now.  

Maybe through this Awareness you begin to walk a step slower, drive 5MPH less, eat one less bite, drink one glass less, don't move every time the thoughts say you should, buy one less item, look at what you are eating see if it is really what makes for a body you would want to be in, maybe you smile more and frown less knowing that this all will fade, but that you are lucky enough for the moment to be in it.  As one slows down, less is needed and more is received.  Wait and See. :o)

Death is motion, motion is life...you will begin to know what both appear In as you slow down to take notice, and in that, you may find what is not born and can never die, but what both birth and death appear In.  

Your ownSelf.

WHAT IF NO ONE'S WATCHING

You may hear from time to time to "keep an open mind."  Sounds simple right, but what is an open mind...from here it looks like a mind that can allow all possibilities.  Of course this is easy to say but to do...one actually has to be willing not to do.  Because "doing" is of the mind and if the mind is "doing" then it is not open.

So what does all that mean...well let's see what the mind is holding on to and then let's see if it can open.  Can you allow the possibility that no one is watching your life.  That you will have an entire life...only seen by you (shared with apparent others, yes, but only seen by you) and that at the end of the road, when the body dies, all of it goes with you, because it was, in a sense, only a computer recording the ins and outs of life and then wipes out at the end just like what you do to your old computer when you are ready for a new one.  You wipe out all the information so that no one has it and you get a new one and start over again.

It is not being said that this is how it is...only can one allow the possibility that it could be?  That there is no one to pray to, no one to save you, no one to save, only a computer, walking the planet, recording the information of life and then commenting on it, putting it all into neat or not so neat little files that it recalls at later times to share with others that come along and then eventually is put to rest.

See that is a blue sky from here.  No holding on to anything, record yes, hold on to no, unless one wants to.  The blue sky is that you are not the computer, you are what the computer is in.  

Ani DiFranco who wrote the song that is the title of this post "What if no one's watching" says in the song "What if God is just an idea someone put in your head."  Isn't that a pretty interesting thought?  Thoughts are interesting and especially if we follow them to their Source.  Ever follow a thought back to where it came from?

So if somehow this thing you are riding around in that one calls a "body" is like a computer, couldn't a program be placed in it that said "God" and then a button is clicked that says "Find" and one types "God" and the search begins to find "God" but what if you are in "God" how would you find what you are in?  And how would you understand what you are in?  Can you see the good humor in this.

So then we create others that can help us find "God."  Like if we just do everything that Jesus said or the Bible said or Buddha said or Mohammed Said or Rumi Said or whoever the latest Guru says...then we will find God...but we over look the message in the search to find.  Ultimately the message is "You Are That which you are seeking to find."  But the little computer thinks that it is the computer that they are and not the THAT which cannot be described with words but only pointed to...again follow a thought to it's Source and then tell one if there is something to be sought.

So Blue Skies...an open mind.  An open mind accepts that they may be wrong but is willing to hear all the possibilities and shines.  For the open mind it is not a matter of who is right or who is wrong, but rather, what right and wrong appear IN.

The LIGHT

 

 

This is the second picture I've taken recently with the timer on the camera that has come through with the Light appearing and seems to be such a great pointer to what is becoming Known.  Light shines through all things and it appears only to be the beliefs and the thoughts about oneself and the world one appears in that momentarily hides the Light.  The less "you" the more Light. 

 

Now I also know that one might think I am speaking about Joy(sters) in this world and in a sense one could use "Joy" in this world as an example but not as "the" example...just as an example of  what is being pointed to is what "Joy" and everyone is In.

 

The Light comes through you....you are in it and it is through you.  It can be hidden but it cannot be destroyed because it is not In this world it is through it.  Both the darkness and the light in this world are in the Light.  All ideas concepts and beliefs are in the Light.  And if you think you know what the Light is...then it is not the Light...it is only what the Light is in (a belief). 

 

I was reading this morning about the prison system in America.  I have been hearing quite a bit about prison systems throughout the world lately and have some personal expierences with the prison system both by guards and innmates.  Both sides are in prison.  What I read this morning is that the injection that they put into the men before they kill them (men on death row) actually is an excruciatingly pain injection that causes a very painful death.  My heartbroke.  I was under the impression that we as a people had moved away from this kind of vengence.  I asked what can be done and sat for Meditation.  I then wrote a letter to a Friend that is in prison asking him to begin to speak to the men around him about becoming Anestiasologists, because anestiasologist, for whatever reason at this time, will not perform the injection that would stop the pain.  So this way the men in jail can begin to help themselves...they can begin to become productive as well as releive some of the pain that their brother men are experiencing. 

 

Now maybe you are one of the ones that says ... well let them have their pain they wouldn't be there if they didn't deserve it.  Well maybe before you make that claim go and visit a man or women in jail.  See if you are a bringer of Light to them.  Because we are all born innocent and something happens in life that either rises us up or brings us down or numbs us to our ways of being in this world.  Go visit and then make your decision.  Because many of those on death row have made changes and it is because of those that got involved that they could See.

 

I am not saying this is an easy road.  But our prison systems are becoming big business.  And you don't know when it will affect you personally.  But why should it have too?  I guess it is time to write to the local board of Anastialogists if there is one and see if they are up for being the Light.

 

                 Light shines through all things.

 

 

 

 

REST IN PEACE ...

One can hear the words "Rest" and/or "Relax" and if you are anything like this one … just hearing them used to make for tensing up and being concerned that their wasn't resting or relaxing going on, which led to more stress.  It was not a natural way of being for this body/mind to be in a relaxed state.  



It wasn't until fairly recently, that the word relax actually did remind that one can.  Where did this shift happen?  Funny enough, it happened in the willingness to die.  Of all things, relaxation came in the willingness to die.  It had been all the running from death that had created the tension.  Not just physical death … but death of relationships, death of finding or having a job, death of having health, death of being a good parent, death of wanting things to be some other way than what they are.  So this surrender began to set in.  There wasn't a fighting against any of the forms of death that were appearing at this doorstep.  



Although this had been pointed out  for years, it hadn't been faced.  It was "got" or "groked" conceptually (meaning that it sounded like a good idea …"just sit with it  fear and let it kill you.").  But every time fear would come … it seemed stronger and more powerful than one could have imagined.  There would not only be thoughts and images but also emotions and very "real" stories of things that weren't liked and wanted to go away.  So instead of sit … one ran to doctors for help, ran to people to console, ran anywhere food, drugs, alcohol, sex anything to not feel this fear, this emotional pain, this story that keeps repeating itself.

This continued on for quite some time, and the stories were followed and seemed real … could talk to people about them and they would would be kind, they understood the suffering and that just fed the story even more.  Then one day, something shifted and this one began to get sick, very sick and tired of the stories.  Maybe one had suffered enough because there was no tolerance to hear them anymore and they began to be faced.  



One of the surest ways to face ones fear is by saying YES to it.  It goes against the grain of conditioning, but it the truest answer to what knocks on your door "YES, come in … been waiting for you to show up again."  It is a simple thing but when it comes...when the fear of death comes (which again in this instance it is NOT body death, it is death or loss of anything that one wants to hold on to, but has been afraid of seeing or acknowledging in their self) it will come with the big GUNS.  It will say you are the worst and you must admit that you are, you could not see it if it were not true.  It will say to you the things you really believe in...like religion (i.e. that you are cast out of Heaven, that Jesus will not accept you or that God does not love you and these again must be faced with a Yes, not to get better, to admit that you believe the darkest things about yourself).




Things will appear that you have done that you are not proud of, things about being a child, a parent, a boyfriend/girlfriend,  a husband/wife, about your performance in life, it will tell you you are awful and unworthy of Love, it will tell you all kinds of things to keep you in it's control and it will have proof.  A sure sign that you are avoiding death is all the proof it has that you are bad and unworthy.  Or it may come from the other side of the same coin … that you are so wonderful and so great that you won't die … both directions are stories that lead one away from facing death.  Just say "Yes" to the Greatest thoughts and the Worst as well.



You may be thinking right now … "oh yeah … fear of death is nothing or that you won't be scared" if that were the case than you wouldn't be reading this.   In this moment it will sound easy and simple.  When it comes, which is usually at your weakest moment, you will see that it is NOT easy to face (once it is faced you will wonder how it seemed so hard but before it is faced it can seem quite hard and scary, frightening even).  Because it will be something that you believe in and the only way to face it is to say "YES" kill me...I am that, a denial of it or an attempt to make it better will make it go away but it WILL come again, because it was not faced.



It maybe helpful if this is shared in a more personal way.  One of the many BIG GUNS that came this way was/is Courage.  That I am not a courageous person.  Usually the GUNS are big on things we want to be but continually fail to be.  The proof here was that there wasn't a speaking what this one had come to Know.  Was afraid of what people would think, what they would say, the times that there was sharing, people would say you're crazy or worse.  

Was afraid to be around people because … thought something would be said that would offend them or would scare them off.  


Was afraid to stand in the ground I had been planted in.  Where one is planted they are all alone, could not use others to stand for me ... there was no proof of what had come to be Known, yet there was an ability to point anyone that was interested towards it.  There were many attempts to begin sharing and many set backs … ultimately it begin to dawn that courage is not stagnant.  It is something that shows up moment to moment … it is not something one is … it is something that one is being.  And courage comes in being willing to stand alone … to die to the thought of courage … that one doesn't even know what courage is … until one is in it.

Sometimes what looks un-courageous is courage.  It isn't necessarily standing and fighting that takes courage … sometimes courage is walking away.  

Sometimes courage is doing what everyone else says you shouldn't and sometimes courage is having tears stream down your face while your pants are being pulled down in a stadium full of people.  You don't know how it will appear, but you know what it is when you are in it.



Another big GUN is being a parent.  It always seemed like I was not good enough.  Could not ever do enough or that it was always too little too late.  So I'd keep trying harder … to get "better" to do more … but it was not ever enough.  My Teacher would say "Better is the enemy of Good."  And I would Hear it … but couldn't quite understand it.  In the search for becoming better, all that is right here is overlooked.



With both my son's there has been a time where they have had to be completely alone in the world.  Where I did not care for them.  These were some of the hardest times, what kind of person leaves their child, leaves them to feel abandoned and alone.  I knew the "alone" they were facing and at the same time , knew what is at the core of that aloneness.  It had revealed it to me (by my parents) and now it was being revealed to them … and yet I knew how much I had  blamed my parents for, in a sense, forcing me to see it.  And then the years of running from it, and then the entering of my Teacher and the acceptance of the actuality of it and the relaxation into It … as one's True Home.  Where once one would have said the most awful thing a parent could do, in turn became the greatest Gift one can ever Receive.  But until one faces the fear of being alone, one cannot see what they are In.



It won't be just a saying of it … it will be an acceptance of it … you will no longer be running from what you *think* about yourself.  You let it in to you … it is your *fear* thought, you are the one having it … let it in … let it in and let it kill the beliefs you have about yourself.  



Once you have stopped running from who you *think* you are, then you begin to see who you Truly Are.  But this cannot be done when you *think* that you are something other than what you are.



This is where True Relaxation comes in … that when a thought or stories appears for you … it is welcomed … it is faced and it is seen through as just a story.  The same is said for the good stories that come … eventually all stories will begin to fade in you.  



Rest in Peace.

What Has No Opposite...

The symbol above is the "MU" symbol which is the Japanese symbol for nothing, no-thing, no place, no one. It represents the indescribable.  One may think that no thing, nothing, is flat but that is not the case...the thing that is no thing...is what everyOne yearns for and yet mistakenly seeks outside theirSelf.

Today there was a looking at bodies, a reading of stories of men and women who have experienced horrible atrocities and then retaliation for those atrocities and also just a sitting with those atrocities and the helplessness one might feel from those atrocities.  This reading once again pushed one back to what those experiences appear in and the revealing once again that the body is not who one is.  This is a giant leap for many and not so far for some...however the reintegration into the world may quickly have one forget that the body is just a vehicle and not who one is.  You will find that as there is less and less importance placed on the body for identity the more clearly this is seen.

For anyone interested in an amazingly well done movie that reveals that we do not  know what anything in this world is for check out "Incendies."  Do not watch the trailer or read the reviews for the best experience of this movie.  It is very intense and not for the weak hearted. 

Bodies are in a sense pieces of a puzzle that can connect together to become "in this world" momentarily one thing.  When a man is inside a woman or another man or a woman puts her body in another woman, there is a momentary completeness. However, sex or entering the bodies are just examples of where this pointing goes.  When there is an entering of the body then the entire universe is one thing and when the removal happens it appears separate.  It is a reminder that we are all one, yet appearing seemingly separate.

However True Ulitimate Oneness, is what the bodies appear IN and when the attention has been placed there, then one knows they are not a man or a woman and have not ever been that.  Just because you get in your car in the morning does not make you your car.  The same is with bodies...so anyone thinking they are more special because of the body they are in are the same as thinking they are more special for the car they drive.  All are going to end up in the junk yard eventually.  But who you are, doesn't go to the junk yard...it has no level of hierarchy because there is no opposite to it...there is only That and it is you and it is me and it is everyone else because it is what we all appear IN.

Everything is resolved in this simple recognition.