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Sunday, August 19, 2012

THE GARDEN (Digging Up The "I" Thought).



There is a Garden here at the Ranch and there are also weeds...one of the things that has been shared is that if you don't want the weeds to come back...then you have to get them at the bottom...at the base of the root.  If you pull to hard or fast or the soil is not damp enough and don't get all the root at once...then the weed will grow back.

It seemed like a good analogy for how it is with the "I" thought (who most think they are).  It is like a weed that if you don't get it by the very core...it will just spread and grow out from what is left and if it is just left it grows wild and tries to overtake the Garden.  

Let's start by taking a look at words..."words" in themselves are not real...they are just sounds and letters that were made up and agreed upon to mean certain things ... that is all the "I" thought is.  It is just a word...it is just a letter.  But you say it all the time like it means something...don't you?  "I" like this and "I" like that and "I" am so good or "I" am so shitty.  But do you ever look to see what this "I" is that you keep saying you are?

If there were no words ... no sounds ... would you still be?

So maybe you are beginning to see that every time you say "I" you may not be telling the truth.  Don't take it from me...it's something you will have to investigate...however...it might be the greatest investigation you've ever been on...just like when you pull that weed up out of the garden and you see that you got the whole root and you know that it is not going to be coming back to that part of the Garden...and the Garden we are speaking of in the domain of the "I" thought is the Garden of Heaven.  

Now Heaven is just a loaded word because people have all kinds of fantasies about what Heaven is and who will be there and they imagine all kinds of things...but what if Heaven has been completely misunderstood and actual Heaven...is just the pulling out...rooting out the weed called "I."  

No "I" = Heaven.

The "I" thought says that everything should be some other way than how it is.  The "I" thought thinks it has to do all kinds of things to get where it already is.  The "I" thought thinks that Heaven is some other time than Now...but just because the "I" says all these things...doesn't make it so.  

Now depending on how much you have invested in creating this "I" you call "you," could make it hard to give up...the more important the "I/you" thinks it is...the deeper the root goes. So even though it can be dropped/pulled out/weeded in an instant...if you are like me...you don't get the whole root to come out all at once.  

One of the ways that you can begin to see that the "I" isn't real...is that it always is telling you about something that isn't actually happening. The "I" thought is past/future based.  It will say "I" am going to do this or "I" am going to do that...but all you have to do is look around ... just Stop...take a breath (deep one is always good for the body) and look around ... is there anything happening...right now...is there anything happening but these words being read?  All the things that "I/you" worry about that might happen or did happen...are not happening Now.  

Heaven = Now. 

The best way to begin to see the lie of the "I," is to begin to investigate what it is telling you.  The clearest way to see the non-existence of the "I" is to ask the only true question, the questions that all other questions are in avoidance of:

"Who am I?  Really."

It is never "how" or "why" it is always "who?"

Before the "I," I Am.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

A GUIDED MEDITATION (Your Crucifixion)

Find a quiet space...where you can sit comfortably.  Close your eyes and take three deep cleansing breaths...as you breath in ... imagine a bright light coming in through your nose...through your head and down your chest and as you breath out your mouth...relax your jaw and see this bright light coming out.  

Do this three times.

Now with eyes closed...imagine you are Jesus (whatever you picture that word "Jesus" to means to you or use the image below).  Imagine that you are him and that you are being laid down on two pieces of wood with your hands spread apart and your feet entwined together.  Now imagine that you know that the person that is about to put the nails into your hands and attach you to the wood...is you (you do not have to understand it just allow your imagination to do it).  

You are looking at this person...knowing it is yourself and that they are about to pierce your hands and there is no way to tell them who you are...there are no words you can use to relay to that person that they are piercing their own skin through yours.  

He does not know that he is doing it to himself.  He thinks/believes that you...as Jesus...are separate from him...and you as Jesus know that even though he thinks this...it does not make it so.  

You feel a wave of compassion wash over you.  You look at him and know that he doesn't know what he is about to do.  It comes up to you the Truth of the statement when you say "Forgive him Father for he knows not what he does."   He does not know that when I say "I and the Father are One...that he can say the same."  Feel your Heart being broken and don't try to fix it.



Now imagine that you are the person putting the nails into Jesus' hands.  You have been told that he is a trouble maker...that he says blasphemous things ... makes lofty assumptions ... that he is attempting to lead people away from the Roman Church...that he is a King of the Jews and claims to be the Messiah.  

You are afraid...allow yourself to feel afraid of this person that goes against everything you believe...who threatens the foundation of your beliefs ... your family ... your life...feel that wanting to protect yourself from this man...this man could take away all the things you hold dear in this world.  

The things he says...like he is the son of God...or the Kingdom of God is Within are too big for you to understand...they are scary and you just want him to go away and stop saying the things he continues to say. Your fear makes you angry and you don't like how he looks at you so lovingly and compassionate...it feels like mockery...it is like spitting in your face that he is so calm.  

You hammer the nail in...and he screams and you think...who is the son of God now...where is your God now.  In your rage you cannot see that what is in you is in Him.  You are blind...blind.


Now step back.  How does one help a blind man See?

Is there enough space to see that the whole picture is You.  If that is too far a stretch for the imagination...imagine how it was for Jesus 2000 years ago.  Things have not changed very much...it seems people still do not wish to hear the Good News.

So begin if you will...to just entertain the idea...that you are the blind one and you are the one that Sees.  And if you are both...then both are in You.  

What is there to forgive?  If you are Jesus and you know that you are putting your own nails into your own hands...do you need to forgive yourSelf...and if you are the crucifier...do you foregive yourself for not Seeing who you are...for being blind.

This is a very personal endeavor and one that can help to create great healing in you.

The concept "forgiveness" is for the one that has yet to see that he is Crucifying himself.  

Be kind to yourself.  You are not who you "think" you are.  Thank God :o)


GOING BACK TO WHO WE ALREADY ARE.





Nelly Furtado...has given such a great gift in her new video "Spirit Indestructible."  I have put a clip from the video into this blog post because I've been looking for a way to describe something that cannot be described and she did a really great job of pointing to it. 

We are Nothing...no - thing ... at all.  When the body drops and as Nelly has so wonderfully created an image for...we go back to what we already Are...what we Are right this minute.  Without all the stories of "who we are."  You begin to know who you Are.  That Nothing...is not "nothing" like the mind/thoughts understand it...but it is what we are In.

Someone may ask ... why spend so much time trying to point to Nothing...well because that's what I do...that's how I am used.  And it has been the greatest Gift of this life time to discover It.  That the body is not who I am and that what I am does not die but just goes back to what it already Is...right this moment...it wasn't born and it doesn't die...it doesn't move and it doesn't have opinions...it is the Observer of all of it and it in a sense is always calling one Home to it...though one is in It.  

It is a joy to say such circular words ... where once they caused confusion...glorious confusion...now they Point to what cannot be said but can be Known.

Thank you Nelly!