HOLDING ONTO THE PAST...

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here for the song "Nothing Less Than Everything.")

If you are holding onto things from the past that have hurt you or scared you or left you not liking someone or even hating someone, you are carrying that energy with you everywhere you go and you hold it against that other and they have it weighing on them wherever they are.  It has been said "Better to clean out your spiritual Home than to clean your physical one."  ~The Mother  What she is sharing is that as we become Clear and Clean on the inside, the outside of our life begins to reflect this clarity also.

One of the ways to begin to clean your spiritual home is to let go of the past.  That you look at the people and things and experiences that you have been carrying ... just close your eyes and look and see ... is there someone I still don't like, that I want to hold something against, and not just someone but something or some action or some experience that you keep replaying in your mind that is unresolved, be willing to begin to see and hold it more lightly.  

Sometimes it helps to see a person that you are angry with, as a child, if you have a child picture that person as if they are your child and see if you still wish to carry that anger.  It doesn't matter who it is or how old they are, just allow them to be a child and whatever action you are angry about that they did, see if you can seem them this little child and whether you would still hold it against them like you have been doing.  This isn't just healing for you, it is healing for them, we are all connected and what you give to another you give to yourself and visa-versa.

This does not mean that you do not remember the past, because when the past comes up, it is actually in your present so it is not the past, but it is there for you to look at or it wouldn't be coming up.  Look at it, see what it is asking of you and see if you are willing to give it.  Then let go, or it will just go, you will see.  Your life and the lives around you will become Lighter because of your willingness to heal.  To Clear and Clean your True Home, first.

Namaste (That which is in me, bows to That which is in you).

TIME AND THE "I" THOUGHT

This morning the thought appeared "there is no you."  Took a look and was like wow … yes there is emptiness here and was able to see something that is being pointed too.  As a kid two things seemed very strange to me that everyone else agreed was absolutely real.  One is "time" and the other are "words." With a child's mind everything is much more simple and the simplicity pointed to the obviousness that both "time" and "words" were man-made.  From that realization it has formed to what can now be shared (seemingly) many, many years later with a more educated way of saying it (though not much more,  heh).

So, what was seen is that if one said the word "car" (was in one at the time) over an over again … it begins to lose it's meaning.  Without knowing it's meaning it could have meant anything …  as long as someone else agreed that whatever it was named it is what it is … however … and … just because something is "named" doesn't make it what the name is  (like humans).  That was what was revealed about words … the seeing that they are only "real" because we agree with others that certain sounds represent what we see with our eyes.

Then there was time … this took more time (heh) to grasp.  It was actually more of a wondering of "how could time be real?"   This image appeared of just space (not even that really) but just this vast Emptiness and then a grid is laid upon that Emptiness and it is called "time" but there really is no "time" or another way of saying it is … it is only and forever  Now.  


Time (the grid) is just another man-made thing that we all have agreed upon.  So "time"  is the grid that is laid on Emptiness/Space ... that drove the investigation even deeper.  A question arose "what is the universe laid on? ... what is behind the universe?"  Well the Gift was/is received and there is no word for what was/is Revealed ... could call it … Light or Energy, Brightness,  Emptiness, Space, Stillness (see picture above for vague concept the yellow is the backdrop or the screen that all appears on)...but it's not really that … what is before time and before words and before bodies and before the Universe and is right Now forever Now … it is Everything and everything is in IT … it animates everything and yet is not an IT (obsoletely indescribable).

So that created a bit of a freak out for a good 10 years … with bouts of paranoia that still arise (don't underestimate the power of beliefs).  However, the Universe and Time (don't say this to a scientist that hasn't dug all the way through) do not actually exist.  Which brings us back to the original thought that appeared this morning "there is no you."

Thoughts are just like the grid above and like words, they aren't actually there … go ahead and look for a thought … see if you can make one appear ... perhaps they are just echoes in "time."  (Cosmic Joke.)

Most things that are written here on this site/blog you will have to investigate for yourself.  All these hands can do is type and point ... but no one could have looked for me (well actually there was no one that actually looked) ... but that is a bit advanced in unlearning … until you begin to see that you have believed in something that isn't ... just like Santa Claus.

Most people would not find any of this helpful … but one will.   ;o)