There is a Garden here at the Ranch and there are also weeds...one of the things that has been shared is that if you don't want the weeds to come back...then you have to get them at the bottom...at the base of the root. If you pull to hard or fast or the soil is not damp enough and don't get all the root at once...then the weed will grow back.
It seemed like a good analogy for how it is with the "I" thought (who most think they are). It is like a weed that if you don't get it by the very core...it will just spread and grow out from what is left and if it is just left it grows wild and tries to overtake the Garden.
Let's start by taking a look at words..."words" in themselves are not real...they are just sounds and letters that were made up and agreed upon to mean certain things ... that is all the "I" thought is. It is just a word...it is just a letter. But you say it all the time like it means something...don't you? "I" like this and "I" like that and "I" am so good or "I" am so shitty. But do you ever look to see what this "I" is that you keep saying you are?
If there were no words ... no sounds ... would you still be?
So maybe you are beginning to see that every time you say "I" you may not be telling the truth. Don't take it from me...it's something you will have to investigate...however...it might be the greatest investigation you've ever been on...just like when you pull that weed up out of the garden and you see that you got the whole root and you know that it is not going to be coming back to that part of the Garden...and the Garden we are speaking of in the domain of the "I" thought is the Garden of Heaven.
Now Heaven is just a loaded word because people have all kinds of fantasies about what Heaven is and who will be there and they imagine all kinds of things...but what if Heaven has been completely misunderstood and actual Heaven...is just the pulling out...rooting out the weed called "I."
No "I" = Heaven.
The "I" thought says that everything should be some other way than how it is. The "I" thought thinks it has to do all kinds of things to get where it already is. The "I" thought thinks that Heaven is some other time than Now...but just because the "I" says all these things...doesn't make it so.
Now depending on how much you have invested in creating this "I" you call "you," could make it hard to give up...the more important the "I/you" thinks it is...the deeper the root goes. So even though it can be dropped/pulled out/weeded in an instant...if you are like me...you don't get the whole root to come out all at once.
One of the ways that you can begin to see that the "I" isn't real...is that it always is telling you about something that isn't actually happening. The "I" thought is past/future based. It will say "I" am going to do this or "I" am going to do that...but all you have to do is look around ... just Stop...take a breath (deep one is always good for the body) and look around ... is there anything happening...right now...is there anything happening but these words being read? All the things that "I/you" worry about that might happen or did happen...are not happening Now.
Heaven = Now.
The best way to begin to see the lie of the "I," is to begin to investigate what it is telling you. The clearest way to see the non-existence of the "I" is to ask the only true question, the questions that all other questions are in avoidance of:
"Who am I? Really."
It is never "how" or "why" it is always "who?"
Before the "I," I Am.
